Weeks in Austin have become marked by our out-of-town visitors and friends.
First there was Jean-Remi (a friend of a friend from France); then Briony spent three days; followed by a visit from Maria; last weekend Lillie came back in town along with Joe for 4th of July celebrations; and finally this weekend my housemate Adriane is home and Katie Chapman has returned with two colleagues from Dallas.
And all these comings and goings keep reminding me that I'll have to uproot the foundations I've made here in a month or so and go on my way too. It's saddening!
Tonight I can't seem to get to sleep - a mixture of excitement and anxiety I guess. I feel like my life is about to diverge into two possible paths. Will I work for Roadtrip Nation again for two months until mid-November then fly home? Maybe they won't sponsor me for a work visa so then how am I going to spend my last months in the Americas? And those questions bring me back to that core quest: What do I want to do for the next year? And the year after that? My year-to-year planning seems to have worked well so far, but how much longer can I keep it up? When am I going to face up to the dreams I've been too scared to attempt?
I can't even decide how I'm going to spend the weeks after I finish my internship at Austin City Limits! If I could work for free there and somehow sustain a living I would do it in a flinch. As December draws closer, so does the talk about the big "move" - when ACL will relocate to its new home at Block21, downtown Austin. How I wish upon a hundred stars to be there for the whole thing!
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